March is a difficult time for me for many reasons. It is also a very happy time because it is my mom's birthday. Since she passed away, I actually don't remember when it started, my sisters have gathered together for the the 'sister luncheon'. To remember my mom and to catch up on each other's life. I have so many great memories from the luncheon and seeing my sisters and before mom died we would go to lunch and have a little shopping. I loved shopping with my mom. She was genuinely interested in seeing what we purchased and what we liked and she always gave her input as to if she liked the choices made or not.
I hope she has a very Happy Heavenly Birthday. This family picture is one of my favorites because I am in her tummy. My mom was an amazing woman. I love her so much. In my adult years and especially when I was first married and would call her for advice, she would have the best advice to give. One particular occasion I was speaking to her about some problems I was having with my children and she said, "don't worry about how they are feeling about your parenting choices, everyone who gets mad will eventually get glad:. I love that and have thought of it many times since.
I quit going to the sister's lunch a few years ago because it is a bittersweet day for me since the death of my husband and I just can't make it emotionally through the day. I miss seeing my sisters, but since I made that choice the level of stress for me meeting expectations that I put upon myself have pretty much completely gone away. With the help of a counselor, I have worked through the choice I have made and have come to realize that for me, not going is so much better than feeling like I ruin the day for anyone attending. I love to hear about the fun that they have together, but I don't believe I will ever be there again.
I am so blessed to have been raised in such a good family. There seems to always be some type of drama going on, but I love each of my siblings and I am grateful for them. I wish I had closer relationships with some of my siblings despite differences in politics/religion/ and ideas, but it might be a little late for that. I am just grateful for them all. I am blessed and I love them all.
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